Restless

I'm restless, my wife always worries when I say that or sit with that far off look in my eyes. It is hard to explain. I just feel like there is something else. Life never goes as you would expect it to, and perhaps that is good. It is good to know that I am not in control or steering this ship, God is. I guess that is the reality of where I am, I am trying to do things and make things happen in my time. The restlessness I get often happens when I don't let God be God. I often pray that I am more satisfied, and that God be sovereign in my life, but I feel like I am living in this tension.

Perhaps this is how God wants it to be. If I get too comfortable in this life I loose the anticipation for Jesus' return and the awesomeness that is to come. So my prayer today is may God's will be done here like it is in Heaven and come Lord Jesus, quickly. The restlessness and anticipation is wearing me out! May our God direct your paths today and watch over you always.